TheClosestToMyDream.

My life is pretty hectic and since i moved out, everything hasn’t really been the same. Better in fact. I don’t have to stress over my mom being in my heir, no clutter and i actually set my own boundaries. This weekend, I went back to my old house to “clean” but it was already empty. I checked every room and every cabinet, sadly I did not find anything in them. As I took a look around, I started to reminisce all the memories that were made in something that was once my home.. Now there are strangers living in my home and it’s so empty that I can hear the echo of every move that i make. I fell to my knees and cried. From a house filled with many things to a cleared out home. It makes me so sad that we took advantage of everything that we had. At first, I really wanted to get out of there but now that I look back, I wish that I could start all over again. Start in the empty house all over again. I didn’t think that I would miss too much after I left but I was in total denial. Going back to the house gave me one of the worst feelings ever. I can never go back there again, what’s done is done and I need to move on with my life.

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i’ve been thinking so much lately bout what i should do. i have so many choice in my life that it’s really making me frustrated. ughh, words can barley explain how i feel right now. the thing that really gets me even more mad is my mother. even if i tell anybody the situation, they still are not gone understand because they don’t kno my mother i kno a lot of people say this but when other people say it, it’s so irrational.. i honestly think that i have a reason to complain about my mother. SHE’S A MOTHER LIKE NO OTHER. but honestly, there are so many things that i just wan a do to her.she drives me crazy and i feel like it’s just gona shoot me down from what i really want to accomplish in life. i really love her but maybe it’s just best that i’m not around her. the worst part is that i’m the only thing that she has left. LITERALLY &then again mj but even when she gambles, she loses so what’s the point. she’s really killing herself trying to make a living when she doesn’t have to. the reason why she’s struggling is cause of the $$$$$$ that she THINKS that she can make but she really can’t. i’m so stuck on what to do with my life. all i kno is that i cannot continue to live like this.. where the only thing that my mother can think about is the $$$ money has been surrounding my family so much that i’m really starting to hate it so much. i’m only going to school so that i can do what i love, which is cooking. when i’m at home watching tv or even reading a cookbook, i think about the abundant of things that i can create. however, when i’m around my mother and her restaurant, errything goes down cause errything there is not what i want to surround my life with. most of the dishes there are good, but some how taste all the same to me cause the majority of it is ALLLLL sodium!! & it’s fucking filthy as fuck over there! i don’t even want to get started. for those of you reading this, you’re probably thinking, shouldn’t i be saying positive things bout my restaurant? yes, but i really can’t cause it’s something that i’m not even so proud of myself because of the bad ass management that my mother has created. as much as i try to help her &to make errything better, she never takes me seriously and talks to me like a little kid. i can really confidently say that i’m going to make it one day cause i have the mind &passion to do so. i’m gonna go to sleep now so goodnight!

COOOL.

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OMG IF I GET MARRIED, THIS HAS TO & WILL BE MY CAKE!

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the new disney sucks.. :/

ME. TOO. omg

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